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Pernah tak you rasa yang no matter how much effort you put in or done is never enough. The good things that you do always backfires. That is what i am feeling now. I've been asking myself what do i need to do to make things better, maybe the effort that i put in is not enough but how do i know its enough. Or i sendiri not a good person, not being a good wife, not being a good daughter-in-law, not being a good sister-in-law and not being a good mother to my only child. I betul rasa tertekan and i can't breathe.

Kalau org lain tak menghargai what i have done and make me feel isolated how do i handle this. I really, really, really miss my late mother. Dulu everytime kalau i ada problem or feeling down i dont have to do anything just look at her face and smile dah cukup rasanya mcm org dahaga dapat minum air sejuk and when i talk to her she will answer me very softly and sambil usap-usap rambut i rasanya all the problems that i face will go away and rasa ringin but now where am i to go, where to turn to, I know turn to the ALMIGHTY ALLAH. I will just keep on berdoa untuk perbanyakan and pertebalkan kesabaran i and pasrah and redha apa saja pemberian Nya sebab ALLAH knows best and segala cubaan yg diberikan ada hikmah dan cubaan bagi diri i.