Mami Feeling Guilty

Hai this morning bangun tersentak sekejap, ya Allah i lupa nak bagi susu kak princess i sorang ni. Usually i will feed her abt 11.30pm and skali lagi at abt 5 or 5.30am tapi pagi tadi i boleh tak bangun, sadar2 je dah kul 6.15, memang time untuk i bangun pun for sholat and preparation b4 i berangakat to ofis. Actually kawan i (she has a girl same age as mine) dah stop night feeding her daughter when her girl turn 1 and now her girl sleep on her own (in her own room) and she did mention i manjakan sangat anak i. Betulke i manja kan anak i?? my reason why i am still night feed her because kekadang during the day anak i tak minum susu, sebab itu lah i am still continuing her night feed because she is a growing toddler and she needs the full nutrients and knowing my princess she would want all the junk food and both nyai & yayi manjakan sangat anak i will give in to her every wimp. Skg ni my princess is trying to test and push my patience to the limit, everytime i marah kak dia, hai hati i yg sedih kalau boleh tak nak marah tapi kekadang tu tak leh nak control temper and to make thing worst nyai and yayi slalu lah masuk frame kalau i nak discipline anak i, itu yg buat i lagi marah tapi mcm mana bilang kak my mother in law because she is not an easy to person to talk too kalau dah kata dia, kata dia je lah yg betul semua salah even my father in law pun tak leh nak ckp ngan dia, sigh, so bertambahlah mami feeling guilty..........................