Bengang

Ish my DH ni betul lah pagi tadi i betul nya terperanjat bila i tengok lauk ayam yg i masak smlm dah tinggal 3 potong je, yg lain my DH dah bedal. Last tuesday i masak dua mcm lauk ayam masak madu & singgang ikan, this is dinner cum lunch for smlm petang for both my pak & mak metua. So smlm i balik lauk ayam masih ada lagi so i panaskan and transfer from the pot to the bowl for my DH to abiskan lauk ni bila dia balik around 11+.

Yesterday i siapkan kemas rumah dulu baru lah i start masak and i cook lauk yg simple je ayam masak sambal kicap sebab dah penat sangat tak larat nak masak yg complicated. By the time i finish cooking & cleaning up dah kul 11.30 terus i masuk dlm so i did not meet up my DH bila dia balik and this morning bila i abis mandikan mak metua i terus i proceed to panaskan lauk and i was shock huh tinggal 3 potong lah mana cukup for my pak & mak metua and both my sil. My DH ni betul lah, tengok jam dah kul 6.45 mana sempat nak masak lauk lain except for my little princess nya soup and ayam are all in the freezer, panic jap mcm mana ni so i tanya my mak metua,

Me : mak lauk ayam nya tinggal 3 potong je, abg dah makan mlm tadi kalau tak cukup mak suruh abah beli makan boleh tak mak, tak sempat nak masak.

Mak metua : tak pa lah tak kisah, mak boleh makan maggi asalkan kau masak kan lauk anak kau sudah.

Phew! selamat, my mak metua ni cerewet sikit, b4 her operation dia ckp ngan i kalau boleh dia tak nak makan makanan kak luar sebab dia tak tau bahan apa yg org jualan tu bubuh sebab dia tengah pantang, she did it on her own accord even the doctor says no restriction to her diet but she insist that she wants to pantang so i dont want to argue much. Ok lah if she say it herself that she have instant noddle for lunch then its fine. So apalagi when i was in the car i attack my DH,

Me : Bah u abiskan lauk ayam tu eh, why dont u eat lauk yang kak mangkok. Ayam tinggal 3 potong je tau mana cukup.

DH : Lauk yg tu lagi sedap so i makan lah anyway i cuma amik 3 je ada lagi pe.

Heran juga eh if my DH amik 3 and tinggal 3 in the pot yg 3 lagi mana eh? siapa dah gi bedal, b4 i masak i kira brapa potong ayam i masak, hai toyol mana dah sebat lauk ayam. I diam je lah, apa nak buat my DH dah makan dah pun, nak mengamok or marah no use, tido lagi baik. Hmph malam ni masak apa eh? one thing for sure i nak kena separate for dinner tonight and for tomorrow lunch. So this morning nya incident wont happen again.

Oreo

Wondering why oreo, that is what i am for now, today you see me and tomorrow you don't, macam advert oreo biscuit, now u see it and now you dont. Well i have to be on and off cuti sebab nak kena jaga my mak metua and anak i. Cuti i dah tinggal sikit je kalau nak kluar gi for short trip rasa i tak leh sebab nak kena simpan kan kalau ada emergency at home and not forgetting hari raya is around the corner.

This morning i betul nya merangkak bila i bangun tadi @ 5.45am, aduh ngantuk nya and penat dibadan blum hilang lagi dah nak kena bangun, ya ALLAH kuat kan semangat hambu mu. Lepas sholat subuh i mandikan my mak metua pas tu sibuk bersihkan my service balcony yg smelly with kuching nya wee2 & poo2, by the time i abis buat keje and masak soup for my little princess dah kul 7 time to clean up my bedroom and mandikan my little princess pulak, hai engine on terus dan akan terus on sampai lah kul 12 mlm ni. Initially i plan to cook early morning but aft much thought its best that i masak lebih sikit for dinner. Kalau i masak early morning i takut nanti i sendiri yang rushing sebab nak siapkan rumah, nak siapkan anak i nanti tak pasal2 i jadi frustrated due to rushing doing things. I did ask my mak & pak metua is it ok if i cook extra and they eat the same lauk for lunch and both of them say ok tak kisah. Agaknya diaorang pun kesian tengok i penat buat keje non stop and not to mention i still need to go to work. Balik nanti i dah nak kena masak for dinner cum lunch for tomorrow, basuh baju, kemas rumah & sapu, gedebak-gedebuk dah kul 12 baru lah boleh masuk tido and besok cycle will continue and sampai bila i tak tau sebab mak metua i did mention to me that she dont want to do anything for 1 month aft her operation, but the doctor says that she should be ok 2 weeks after her operation entah lah in terms of medical dia dah ok, she shd be ok but mak metua i buat pantang dia sendiri, i think mak metua i manja kot, apa nak buat, sabar je lah, cubaan..........

Ok lah tak leh nak banyak songeh keje opis i banyak nak dibereskan and sebelum betara guru i masuk lebih baik i log out and lately his mood swing teruk betul, going thru menopause agaknya bye for now................

Boss Cuti

I lupa pulak yang betara guru i cuti, every morning memang dia slalu masuk lambat, boss lah katakan but ari ni lain mcm pulak dah kul 11 pun blum muncul lagi, kawan i dok tanya, any idea wat time is yr boss coming in dari pagi sampai lah sblum lunch tadi, i main hentam dont know, setahu i ari ni tak ada meeting agak nya bangun lambat kot tapi dah aft lunch pun batang hidung dia tak timbul2, pelik bin ajaib, mana boss aku menghilang ni, heran juga kan.

I duduk termenung jap, kak mana agak nya si betara guru ni eh, entah2 dia gi cuti tak? asal dia tak bilang kak aku eh, bukan apa, he has to let me know if he is on leave so that i know how to tepis2 phone call yg kp on coming looking for him, hold and behold he is on leave, dia gi Bintan ngan family dia!!! suddenly i teringat i ada scan for him a confirmation booking for a club med cuma i tak ingat date dia bila so i check in my trash bin, hah betul kan dia gi bintan so sah lah he wont be coming in at all today. Asal dia tak report strength kak i eh, agak nya sal i cuti tak last week and i did sms him last week that i need to take leave again today and besok cuma ari ni i cancel my leave and besok baru i cuti so dia ingat i pun cuti kot ari sebab itu lah dia buat bodoh je, walau ye pun sms me lah so i tau, alah tak kisah lah janji keje i dah abis, cuma problem submission i je blum selesai, kena tunggu the answer from authority department, hish leceh betul lah.

Ok pas ni boleh plan menu for the rest of the week, maklum lah nak make my DH happy so masak yg sedap2 lah tapi mata ni dah nak pejam dah, ngantuk gila beb, tak cukup tido dah brapa malam, nanti lelap mata jap pun baik ah, eleh my friend understand pe, anyway bukan i nak terus membuta sampai 1 or 2 jam paling kuat 20 mins je.

Minggu lepas nya menu:

Thursday - ayam masak kurma, wow pak metua i suka banget ngan lauk ni, dia kata dah lama tak makan, arwah mak pak metua i slalu masak lauk ni dulu, abis u 1 ekor ayam i masak, telur asin, huh ni prabet my DH & sambal belacan. Resipi ayam masak kurma is from arwah bonda i so append herewith the resipi:

Bahan2
1. Haruman - bunga cengkih, buah pelaga, bunga lawang & kayu manis
2. Bawang besar - hiris halus
3. Bawang kecil, bawang putih & halia (kisar)
4. Serai (titik)
5. Cili hijau (belah dua)
6. Kobis (di belah besar-besar)
7. Daun ketumbar
8. Santan cair & pekat

Cara2
1. Tumis haruman hingga naik bau nya
2. Masukan hirisan bawang besar dan tumis hingga layu.
3. Masukan bahan kisar dan tumis hingga garing dan naik bau nya.
4. Masukan rempah kurma dan serai dan tumis lagi hingga masak (garing) rempah nya.
5. Masukan ayam dan gaul hingga sebati ngan rempah, masukan santan cair untuk empuk kan ayam.
6. Setelah ayam separuh masak, masukan lada hijau dan masak hingga ayam empuk.
7. Setelah ayam empuk masukan kobis dan santan pekat kacau hingga sebati.
8. Masukan daun ketumbar, tutup api dah siap

Senang kan and bahan2 nya pun simple, tapi i mintak maaf ye kalau i tak dapat beri angaran yg tepat sebab when arwah bonda i teach me how to cook, beliau cuma bilang agak2 je, jadi nya mesti sedap so sampai skg i kalau masak main agak2 je, so far so good. Tapi kalau tak sedap sorry ye..............

Friday - ikan bawal masak sweet sour - phew yo my girl luv this very much sal i taruk fishball and telur puyuh in the sauce. My DH pulak makan ikan 1/2 ekor dia sendiri yg makan. Pak metua i beli ikan bawal yang besar and for my mil i goreng kan ikan kurau.

Saturday - ayam masak merah huh jgn cakap my DH makan mcm gunung nasi dia, he like it so much when i cook this dish and i pun dah lama tak masak lauk ni.

Sunday - early morning gi breakfast at changi and belen lauk ayam masak merah ada lagi so sunday nya menu tak ada. Tapi petang smlm masak rendang daging untuk lauk ari ni and pagi tadi dah masakan untuk anak i fishball soup & carrot.

Biasa lah i tak petik gambar the end product of my culinary skill, mcm mana nak amik kalau anak i sibuk, ibu carry, ibu kokong. My pak metua ada beli ikan belanak last friday, dia nak i masak kan dia, hmph fikir punya fikir i think i masakan dia lauk singgang je lah, anyway pak metua i suka lauk yg soupy2 and as for the rest of the family i masak ayam goreng percik. Ni yang leceh nya kalau masak lauk ikan, i nak kena masak 2 types of lauk sebab yg lain tak makan ikan cuma pak metua & i. The rest of the family cuma makan ikan bawal or kepala ikan merah other than that tak makan. As for the rest of the days i nak fikir lauk yg paling simple to cook sebab i will cook early morning ard 5.30 pagi so kalau dah nak kena masak pagi2 buta mata masih kuyu nak masak yg complicated nanti jadi nya lain pulak, ni yang masih thinking ni. Phew yo panjang lebar betul celoteh i eh, maklum lah boss tak ada, he, he, he sori eh Mr Ho, i will continue doing my work now, ok me signing out for now..................

Helllloooo Again

I'm back after 4 days of staying at home and practicing to be a full time mom, i'm glad that i am back at work. Phew, 4 hari at home mcm dah 4 bulan otak buntu mcm tak berfungsi at home. My time starts from 6am until late night around 11+ so i tak dengar radio or read newspaper, my focus and time spent on my house work, my updates on hal ehwal semasa mcm stop on track kejap. I pun amaze dari mana i ada energy to do everything, Alhamdullilah ALLAH has helped me a lot, berkat doa i, diberikan kesihatan and kesabaran. Penat, memang penat sangat2 kerja i tak ada stop langsung tapi i take this as my responsibility, InsyaALLAH bila i tua nanti anak i pulak akan jaga i, Amin.

My mil has been a very good patient, she listen to my every instruction. Tak banyak complain cuma 1 je my sil tak boleh nak harap langsung, her habits never change she dont even wash up her dirty dishes after eating i tak nak komen banyak lah nanti dosa pulak kan, gasak dia lah, nanti bila dah kawin ada rumah sendiri baru dia tau. Nasib baik lah my DH ada juga tolong i buat keje rumah like mopping the floor on saturday and when he is around he look after my girl needs sebab i sibuk ngan keje rumah kan. Dah lah rumah i ni besar (i bukan berlagak tau) bila dah sapu 1 rumah naik sakit pinggang sebab itu tak larat nak mop rumah and the worst part is my vacumm boleh rosal pulak, hai apa lah nasib i, terpaksa lah i use sapu lidi for my carpet, nasib baik carpet i tak besar cuma yang kecik je.

Even rasa penat when i at home phew susah nak explain and my resting time is my bed time tapi i happy juga sebab my DH commented that bila i am at home perut dia boncit sebab dia makan puas and i can see also my little princess appetite really good, nasi and lauk yg i masak semua habis tak terbuang bila i heard my DH comment and look at my girl eating with gusto both lunch and dinner rasa mcm berbaloi and penat i hilang, i try to avoid cooking what my mil slalu masak so my family has a change of menu and taste, anyway i enjoy cooking and its my passion.

Ok lah tak leh banyak celoteh, keje i berlambak dah mcm2 note on my table that i need to read and i got to download my 40 over emails, kalau ada chance petang nanti i update lah, oh btw besok i kena cuti lagi sebab both my DH and my sil tak leh cuti to look aft my girl. So see ya on wednesday.

Wokay

Wokay keje semua dah beres, yg urgent semua dah selesai, semua email i dah download as of now. Ada lah keje yg boleh bring forward to next week yg i tak touch boleh tunggu kan so sila lah tunggu. Dah siap2 nak alik ni tapi log in jap, sempena i di rumah tak tau lah whether i will be able to update my blog, rasa2 nya tak boleh kot.

So next week bila i dah masuk opis balik i will update and akan i luahkan segala perasaan i on what's happening at home front looking after my mil. Hopefully its smooth sailing but i just push aside my worried feeling, think positive, think positive k.

Ok lah chiao for now and see ya next week, huh, huh sedih juga rasanya tak dpt i menatap blog i and menaip cerpen2 pendek i, its therapeutic tau its good for my sanity. Muacks, muacks, ta, ta, ti, ti, tu, tu...................

Penat!!!!!!!!!!!

Wa, wa, wa................ penat and mengantuk, mata i dah nak pejam je ni, i need coffee........... very badly. I've been running up and down non stop, lutut i dah mcm nak tercabut. Serving 3 bosses at the same time can really kill me, downloading email bukan main banyak lagi, dah tak tahan, tak sanggup, oh cukup, sudah lah, i telah dihimpit ngan keje yg banyak sangat. I need a break, i need a vacation very badly. Eh apadah i merintih mcm drama minggu ini pulak. Over lah sangat i ni kan. Ai mana lah tau ada bakat berlakon boleh masuk tv kan, kan, kan. But in actual fact memang keje i banyak, buat keje org sampai i punya sendiri tak terbuat, so ni dah nak kena rushing to finish my work so i will not be disturb when i am on leave. But b4 i concentrate on my work, i curi tulang jap je lah, berblogging.

Oh ya besok i dah mula cuti untuk jaga my mil due to her eye operation, menantu mithali lah katakan. So i got one small and one big baby to look after. I pun dah set menu what to cook, i tak nak pening2 thinking apa nak masak, apa nak masak, kalau dah buat persiapan awal kan senang. My mil is not an easy person to stay with, she is fussy, demanding and very the authoritian. She is not an easy person to talk too either, macam mana lah u try to explain to her she will digest it wrongly, kita ckp subject A and she will digest it and subject B will come out. Even my pak metua pun tak leh nak ckp ngan dia. Garang gila beb mak metua i, sampaikan i naik phobia nak ckp or berbincang ngan dia, so most of the time i diam je, she say lah what she want to say, i will just keep quiet tak nak komen apa2 takut nanti gaduh or selisih faham and put my DH in a difficult position, mana mak, mana isteri so the best medicine is diam, tutup mulut rapat2. I ingat pesan arwah bonda i, kalau kita dosa ngan mak sendiri, kita nangis mintak ampun mak tak kan sampai hati and mak akan sentiasa maafkan kita tapi kalau mak metua belum tau and bonda i juga pesan untuk jaga tatah tertib i bila ngan mak metua i sebab ia akan reflect how my dearest mother brought me up. Sebab itulah mcm mana i sedih or geram or kekadang tu mcm nak meletup i diam je and my DH lah tempat i meletup and mengamok sakan, well i have to release it somewhere or to someone, like it or not he has to face it. I dah jadi menantu dia 10 tahun and i've been staying with her for the past 4 years, initially masa start staying together, phew yo i have to do a lot of adjustment, sampai kan dah nak slip into depression nasib baik tak sampai ke situ, Alhamdullilah sekarang dah ok sikit, i tak nak layan kan perasaan, masuk telinga kanan kluar kiri dah, hear no evil, see no evil that is my attitude now.

The truth is i am very nervous, looking aft my mil, slalu nya she will be able to do things for herself but from tomorrow onwards and until next week she will depend on me to do things for her so i rasa pressure juga takut dia tak suka layanan i, ada je yang tak kena, then how? Sebab org sakit ni slalu nya cranky. Tak pa, sabar, don't worry this is not the 1st time i jaga org sakit, i kan pernah jaga arwah bonda i dulu so sama je lah tapi arwah bonda i tak cerewet, dia duduk diam je, tak banyak komen so senang nak jaga arwah bonda i tapi my mil blum tau lagi mcm mana her reaction when she is uncapable doing her own things, hmph i shall see, like it or not i have to face it, i am the eldest in the family and it is my responsibility, to look after her, dah tertulis pun even our religion say so, so i have to accept it and face it, with the help of Almighty ALLAH, InsyaAllah, i wil persevere..........................

Superwoman

I think kan besok i nak pakai baju superwoman siap ngan cape colour merah kak belakang with a big SW printed on my my cape because ari ni i rasa betul mcm superwoman. Can u imagine i am doing 3 persons job ari ni, turun naik, turun naik, mcm nak tercabut dah lutut i. Dah lah tu i nak kena layan mood swing our young director, muka dia masam mencuka, i tanya dia soalan jawab siap ngan sarcastic remark! Hai nasib baik belakang nama dia tu ada tulis - Director kalau tidak siap i pun jawab ngan sarcastic remark juga ler nampak nya.

Lucky thing my betara guru is not in the officer most of the time, dia cuma masuk tadi kul 2 and kul 4 tadi dia dah belah and while he is in dia tak kacau i langsung and let me serve the yound director sal secretary dia on leave so i jadi sasaran dia. Wow got 1 more hour to go endure, tahan kan perasaan, oh! oh! the young director baru kol i suruh masuk bilik dia, apalagi si young boss ni nak? agak nya dia pun ada pms tak! Ok lah have to go now nanti lambat masuk, muka i kena sembur and nasib tak baik kena stay late, oh tak nak.......... my little princess is waiting for me.